Not telling your crushing friend at first might cause some weird things: Your behavior towards your crush will change dramatically; you'll become more shy, or demand all of his/her attention, or call him/her up frequently to the point where they'll start ignoring their cellphone calls for a while. You might be constantly clinging on to them for the weirdest reasons just to make contact, or still shying away from them so they won't notice your feelings, making them worry that you're keeping a secret from them (which you are). You will often say awkward things to your friend crush who will in turn feel awkward around you for a bit (let's hope he/she already think you're random and strange!).
To clear things up from the beginning, I am a bisexual girl. Bisexual meaning, if you don't already know, likes both males and females. So, anyway, I told my best friend, a year older than me girl, I was crushing on her. My heart was pounding so fast I could feel the blood rushing in my ears. My friend already knew I was bisexual and didn't mind any fact of it (we have a couple gay friends, male and female), when I had told her she accepted the news, but started acting funny for the rest of the day I was with her. This I could understand, and after a few days she and I mellowed out to where everything was normal again.
She still knows I like her, and I admit I am a bit clingy...-
grins, thoughtful look- but I don't think I could keep in that secret long enough from her. I think that if I would have kept the secret to this day and wait to tell her, the impact would have been stronger, wondering why I didn't tell her those years ago (which was about two or three years ago). We've both changed mentally from then, and with the hormones kicking in, I believe it would have ruined our friendship to tell her now, because of aforementioned hormones (rape, I think...). -
ahem, awkward moment-
My friend/crush is going through the same problem, bar the girl part. He's also a friend of mine and her's, but the big difference between me and her is that she hasn't told him yet. As listed before, she's the kind that occasionally and oftenly shys in presence of her crush, but damn! She does so well to hide it that it just looks so normal, like friends! -
grumbles a little- Or maybe it's the fact that he's blinded by me.
My crush's crush told me he loved me, which I find very funny since I seem to have been the first point in this wicked onesided-love-triangle when I fell for my friend. He's not really the one to keep secrets, but he does make the scene awkward for me when speaking a lot (first paragraph). I try to be polite most of the time, but he's gotten to the point where I had to pull him aside one day at school and tell him he's making me uncomfortable. I told him I could only love him as a friend.
Because I love my friend so much, I try to push her crush closer to her, probably a reason for me avoiding him. -
smiles- I hope they some day end up together.
So, anywho -
notices I'm way off track from topic-, I don't think it would ever work between me and my crush because we're too much alike and we would always agree with each other; every relationship needs chemistry, not nodding heads. Seriously, when I think of chemistry, I think of the agreement, the occasional shouting argument over something totally silly, then the amazing make-up sex seven hours later after we're done talking to our other friends about said stupid fight. -
grins- That's usually how Seto Kaiba and Joey Wheeler do things -
laughs and laughs-. Not to mention the fact that my crush is straight. -
which reminds me of a quote-
As Chris Crocker once said: "I'm terrified right now: I see straight people!"
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